In Whom Do I Trust?

I really don't want to answer the above question. In whom do I trust? Our currency tells me that "we" trust in God. I trust my wife. I trust most of the people I know. I trust my parents, my family, my friends...well, most of my friends. I won't even venture to ask the question "with what am I trusting them?"

Here is a little story...

I've been needing to plan our youth choir summer tour for many months. I always want to know the details and I hadn't even begun to work on them until this week. After weeks and weeks of being tyrannized by urgent matters, I got on the phone last Monday and got to work. By Tuesday evening most of the tour was planned. I was amazed. I thanked God. I thought about how I had been faithful to Him in all of the other projects and now He was opening door after door for this tour. I couldn't believe how one call led to another call and that led to the very person I needed. Time and again the days came together like pieces of a puzzle. Incredible!

Well, on Wednesday I happened to find a certain bike that I have been wanting on eBay. It was brand new, my size, and at a great price. I called the guy who was selling it. Yes, it was the bike for me. I emailed my wife and planned to at least bid on it later. In fact, I was willing to pay the "buy it now" price right then. But, I waited.

After spending the day telling everyone how faithful God is and how He can be trusted, I logged on eBay to check the bidding on this bike. Well, you know what? It was a great deal and someone else had already bought the bike. I couldn't believe it. I didn't get mad, but I sure got down. I pouted. I looked for other bikes. I felt sorry for myself.

I awoke at 4:19 this morning. As I lay in the darkness thinking, my thoughts began to wander and I thought of that bike. Then God rolled me over and kicked my butt. Yes, the Bible says that He disciplines those He loves and He loves me a lot.

I came to the sad realization that I trusted God with my ministry and family but not my stuff. Well, you know what? I'm giving my stuff to Him. He can have it. Unfortunately I have too much stuff and most of it is junk. Sorry, Lord.

At least for now, I choose to trust in Jesus. If he wants me to have a new bike, great. I'll take it. If not, I'll wait until he does. Either way I choose to worship Him with my mouth, my money, my ministry, my family, and my stuff.

"Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Matthew 6:19-21 NIV

Thanks for reading,

Jonathan